Filler entry including Rant

Writing this to mainly get my previous entry out of the way since it's no longer relevant.

Also I'm pretty annoyed at the moment, kinda feel like chewing off someone's ass and having it for breakfast tomorrow morning.

EDIT: Actually, I'll put some stuff into this, why the hell not?


Getting kinda pissed off with certain people again. My dad's being annoying still, people online are being annoying, and I just can't seem to have my own space or a civilized conversation anymore. I've had to block some people that I know on other sites who have accounts here just so there's one less place I can be bothered by certain people, and I feel a little more secure. Not gonna name specific people in this journal since 1.) some people who are still active on Chao Island probably already know one of those people and 2.) it's probably not the best thing to do.

My social anxiety has gone up for the past week, I feel violated in a sense that people keep doing things that I don't understand, and keep pressuring me into doing something, or they argue with me or whatever else. I had two anxiety attacks last Thursday alone, in which I lay down on the floor and balled up with teary eyes for a while. It's not just IRL either, people online get quite bothersome as well. I haven't been coming on Skype much at all for this reason, and when I do I always keep my status invisible. Sometimes I feel ignored, like people don't give a shit about me and just want me to shut up and stop ranting about *insert whatever here*. Other times I feel my personal space is being violated by someone when they continuously bug me about talking to them or doing something else.  There's no middle ground. I get so annoyed by either issue that sometimes I wish I could just throw a punch at my screen and have it travel through cyberspace to hit said person(s) in the face.

Taking a break from the computer doesn't really help. It may help my emotions and for me to calm down, but the people around me online sometimes just don't get the hint and keep pestering me for attention, or put their hand up in my face, or they just piss me off out of pure ignorance for what is being discussed. Believe me, I try to hold civilized conversations, especially since I don't like arguing, but sometimes people are just impossible...

I already know someone is probably gonna say that I'm at fault for this anyways, so bleh

Now I'm gonna shut up before someone else tells me to..